I'm starting to be fearful. To be afraid of changes. Afraid of a lot of things. & those things aren't in my span of control. I have no clue, what's going to happen. No idea, how things will end up. I just have to take the risk, trust that this time things will be different. That things will last. Trust that I won't be a disappointment. But sometimes it gets hard, to live up to who you want to be. Sometimes it just seems easier, to hide yourself, away from the world, from everyone. So tired, of having to be around people. So tired, to be living.