Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Tell me you once did.

You know those nights when you can't sleep? Those nights you can't stop thinking about things. You can't stop thinking about painful memories? You can't stop wishing you could go back in time and maybe cut the queue and not be born as who you are? Tonight's the night.

It's sad feeling like you'll never match up to someone else. It's sad feeling that you'll always be worse than that certain someone. That no matter what you do, you'll never be better than that him/her. It's like you were born to just watch him/her reign over you and you can never live your own life without living in his/her shadow.

But yes, no use thinking about things you can't change. What's done cannot be undone. No amount of tears,apologies could get back what was lost.

Feeling stupid for the tears welling threatening to fall. And you know what they say, it's ok the next one will be better. But what if they were all the same? What if they were all versions of you that can never handle me, never love me never truly care for me?

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